I have had a revelation since the last post on self-control
. I mentioned that areas of weakness for me are housework, computer time and food. My revelation is this: they are intertwined. When I abuse my time on the computer it DOES affect other areas of my life, perhaps all areas of my life. I realized that over the last couple of months I have been "escaping" so to speak to the computer. Sometimes I escape so I don't have to deal with whining. Sometimes I crave adult intellect. Other times I want to be validated that I am not alone. In doing so I often neglect the very things I am home to care for. My children, the housework, cooking healthy, ect. I realized that the kids would take advantage of my distraction and get into things they should not be eating or doing. Their diets were getting out of whack as they had spent much of the day snacking on junk. Not good. Diets of junk affect behavior. Not good. Time on the computer means less time keeping things in order. Messy house, not good.
So what am I going to do about it?
Do I give up the computer altogether? No I don't believe that I do. I know God is doing awesome things and that this blog is part of His plan. I believe I need to strike a balance. Being aware of my time spent. More importantly my MOTIVE behind the time spent. Am I escaping? Or I am being obedient? Is it frivilous or bearing fruit? My hope is that I have time when the kids are sleeping or occupied in a healthy way. I see how God is working in me. It is work, yet I am excited about it. For I know it is necessary and good.1 Corinthians 6:12
12"Everything is permissible for me"—but not everything is beneficial. "Everything is permissible for me"—but I will not be mastered by anything.