Sunday, October 29, 2006


The conference is over. Yet I am still shaking in the spirit. To say I was blessed would be an understatement. Cleveland did not understand what they had in their midst and all but 13 missed it. There were about 70 in attendance. 70 very blessed people. I say Cleveland did not know what they missed because they had two MAJOR prophets, speaking 100% accurate word of the Lord. They have spoken to Kings, Queens, Presidents of many nations and what they have spoken under the annointing has come to pass. 100% of the time. It saddens me that Prophets have been kicked out of the church. It burdens me that America has not heard the prophets warning, that most are closed to hearing the words of the prophet. Even as I type this I can sense the response on the other side of the screen. There has been so much twisted doctorine. There has been such much falling away of the true things of God; the deep things of God. Truth. The truth is that there are still prophets walking the earth today. There are still healings and miracles. There is such a thing as the baptism of the Holy Spirit. There is such a thing as speaking in tongues. Today. This generation. Some teach that these things are of old. They don't happen any more. Some don't understand it so it must not be so. There is more to our Lord than grace. Oh how I love my Lord. How I love his correction. He is Holy. And I revere Him.
I have entered into a time of transition. It is time for things to be put in proper order. It begins in my home. My husband is the head of our home. It is time for him to take that place. How I rejoice. It is what I have been praying for, for a long time. As some one spoke to me a few weeks ago it is a prayer I prayed long ago and the Lord heard. It was like a bomb you see in the cartoons. The stick of dynamite with a long wick. It was lit and it has been working it's way. Let's just say, it has exploded. The Lord did such a work, I stand amazed. Breakthrough. With it brings transition. Transition is hard. I recalled tonight at dinner transition in birth. It was hard. It was painful. There was the promise of something beautiful to see it through. That gave me encouragement that it was all worth it. That is where I am at. I am so excited about the changes. I am praising the Lord for the fruit that is coming. For the release in ministry that will come with things being in proper order. Yet I know that some of it will be hard. Things that did not used to matter to my husband now will. Things that he has given me control of in our home must be reevaluated. My home needs to physically come into order. I have struggled with this in the past. Yet I know that I must have victory in this. I must get rid of the clutter. I must cleanse the home. I must care for the children. I must teach my children. Beyond the ABC's, I need to teach them about the Lord, about the Word. God is raising them to be a light in their generation. They are called to speak truth, to worship and praise. They will heal the sick, the blind will see by their touch. They will cast out devils. They will stand when others around them fall. It is not just them. It is not just their generation. It is now. It is today. It is for ALL believers.
Mark 16:16 He that believeth and is baptized shall be saved; and he that believeth not shall be damned. And these signs shall follow them that believe; in my name shall they cast out devils; they shall speak with new tongues; they shall take up serpants; and if they drink of any deadly thing, it shall not hurt them; they shall lay hands on the sick, and they shall recover.
Did you read that? I mean really read that. It is from the Word. What do you think of when you read that? Really, what do you think? It says those that believe. So I ask you do you believe? What do you believe? Do you believe in the Lord Jesus Christ? Do you believe He died and rose again? Does it end there? Do you believe the bible is God breathed? Do you believe every Word? Or do you take bits and pieces? Have you read the entire bible? Do you know the Lord of the Old Testament? Do you know Christ of the New Testament? Have you been baptized? Water? In the Spirit? Do you know the Holy Spirit? Or as the King James puts it, the Holy Ghost. In Matthew 3 John takes about baptism both water and the Holy Ghost.
Matthew 3:11 I indeed baptize you with water unto repentance; but he that cometh after me is mightier than I , whose shoes I am not worthy to bear: he shall baptize you with the Holy Ghost and with fire:
Jesus baptized in the Holy Ghost. Jesus healed the sick. Jesus cast out demons. Jesus performed miracles, he multiplied the bread and fed the people. In his word it says we will do this and more.
John 14:12 Verily, verily, I say unto you, He that believeth on me, the works that I do shall he do also; and greater works than these shall he do; because I go unto my Father.
The Lord Jesus said he that believes, the works that I do he shall also do and GREATER. So why do we say that these things are not possible today. Why do we say that the baptism of the Holy Spirit is not for today? Where is our faith for greater miracles?
I want to be one of faith. I want to be one that follows after the things of God. To grow in knowledge of the Word. To be free in worship. To use the giftings God has given me. I want to hear the voice of the Lord, all day, everyday. I want less of me and more of the Lord. I want to set aside my flesh and grow, grow, grow.

I want to follow the Lord and Him alone, whatever this may look like or mean.

Saturday, October 28, 2006

Morning Prayer

In my home Lord, be the center. Be the head. Lord, I give our home to you. Let it be used by you for your glory. Help me, Lord, to be the keeper of my home. Help my eyes to see the work to be done. Give me wisdom on how to see it through. And strength to my hands, to my body, to accomplish it, Lord.

Let our home be a place of rest. A place of peace. Let caos not rule our home, but your perfect peace. Let our home be a place of freedom. To praise and worship you. To grow in the knowledge of your ways. Lord, let there be freedom to be the person you have called me to be. A wife, a mother, a friend, a follower of Christ, a minister of His gospel, a dancer for the King of King.

Who do you say that I am?
What do you say about me?

Let not the words of others, or the things of this world bring me down. Lord, for it is you that I choose to please. It is you and your words I want to hear. Oh Lord, that I may hear your voice all the days of my life.

I love you Lord! Praise your name.

Friday, October 27, 2006

Under The Annointing

The cards to our hotel rooms do not work. It is quite hilarious, everytime we go to session and return the cards no longer work. The annointing apparently strips the cards. We are not the only ones, and it has happened mulitply times.

Never underestimate the power of the annointing!

Thursday, October 26, 2006


I get to see my husband tonight!!
He has been gone the entire month of October on bussiness. This is not normal. He may travel on occasion but for short trips, this time it was an entire month. Originally it was going to be a couple weeks then he called and let me know it was going to be extended. And I had peace about it. I feel like God has ordained this time to do an amazing work in both of our lives. As individuals and in our marriage. It has been a time of growth, for both of us.
I have a new respect for single moms. I do not know how they do it, day after day. One of the struggles I had was when to ask for help, having someone watch my kids. At times I felt like a burden, having to ask, yet again, if someone could take them. In reality, I could not have done the entire month by myself. There is no way. I am so thankful I have my parents, friends and a teen sitter that are more than willing to help. Very thankful.
Today, I leave for my conference. I am excited. I know God is doing an amazing work! I know it is good. I may just have to do a little dance, I can not contain myself. Praise be to the Lord!

Wednesday, October 25, 2006

If I Didn't Know Better

I'm not. Yet today as I was reading a book to my son, I was a puddle. The story was sweet and the more I read the harder I cried. I actually had to stop reading at times from the tears and quivering voice. My son laughed at me. I asked "Why are you laughing?" His reply "Why are you crying?" Good question.
It does not stop there. On Saturday I went to a craft show with my mom. A craft show people! It was a fund raiser for a local high schools marching band. So at one point some band members got together and played some songs. Yup. I cried. Streams of tears. As I am listening I ask myself, "why am I crying?" I have not a clue.
It is like some nostalgic cry. Memories. Good memories. Brings on a good cry. Please tell me I am ok. Really I am not pregnant. You would think but no.
Oh and just in case you are wondering the book I was reading today...Chicken Soup for Little Souls The Best Night Out With Dad by Lisa McCourt.

Tuesday, October 24, 2006

The Orchard

A couple weeks ago we went to the u-pick orchard.

Little girl picking a beautiful Fuji.

This tree here gave me a cool picture of only get a glimpse of it in this picture, but the WHOLE tree was overflowing.

Eating an apple along the road.

Some of the scenery along the way.
While we were there we were able to watch tem make cider, sort apples for bagging and partake in some scrumptious fresh pumpkin donuts. Yummy!
Such a great way to spend a fall afternoon.

Monday, October 23, 2006

Worth Mentioning

Here are some of my favorite site's:

Starfall is the best when it comes to phonics. Even my three year old can handle this site. It is meant for kids to do it hands on, so it shows them where to click by using spakling stars. If you have children ages 3-8 you must check out this site.

Teacher2Teacher Teacher/parent resouce. I am using the sight word cards with my son.

Steve Spangler has some of the coolest experiements EVER!! He is the guy that discovered the diet coke and mentos reaction. He has a complete online science store and I have subscribed to his weekly science experiment e-mail. I love it. My mom and I just sent in an order for some stuff and I can not wait for it to arrive. I ordered this and these. And my wish list is quite large.

Handwriting for Kids has some great reproducible worksheets. Print their already designed sheets or make your own. I discovered today they have some bible verses and King's Kids verses to print. Very cool.

Listen to children's stories online on this site, Storynory or download them for free to an Ipod for car trips. I love that you can see the whole transcript of the text so you can know what the story is about before your children listen to it. You can also subscribe as they add at least one story a week.

These are some of my favorites, check them out I think you will enjoy them as well.

How about you, any sites you know of that are worth mentioning?

Sunday, October 22, 2006


This spring I got word that the Pizza Hut Book It Program is available to homeschoolers. So I signed up for my son to participate. The coupons arrived and the program is now underway. After talking about free pizza, he was excited to get started. I got out a beginning reader and he read it, without any problem. He was so excited! You want to talk about smiling eyes and jumping up and down. He called all the grandparents and his cousin to share his accomplishment. Little did he know he HAS BEEN reading, for over a month! I know I have plugged it before but really, Teach Your Child to Read in 100 Easy Lessons is GREAT!
This is his reading portion from the lesson he just completed:
he said, "can I eat cake?
she said, "go sit with the cow."
he said, "no. I will not go."
she said, "go sit with the cat."
he said, "the cat has cake."
she said, "go sit with the cat and eat cake."
so he ate cake.
he said, "this is fun."

My son can read that!! That amazes me! Not to mention we just completed lesson 43, 57 more to go.
Congrats son, YOU ARE READING!!!

Go check out the book it site, they have some great recommendations and printable charts to encourage your kids in their reading goals.

5 Minutes For Mom

Mom Blog DirectoryI've been interviewed and listed in the awesome mom blogs directory at "5 Minutes for Mom". If you're new to 5 Minutes for Mom, take a look through all the different types of blogs and mom-owned stores they have listed. They have all over a dozen categories of blogs and stores with cool stuff like kids golf carts and play kitchens.

Susan and Janice, the moms who run the site, want to help women promote their sites and spread the word that we can all help support work-at-home moms and mom bloggers by visiting their stores and blogs.

Friday, October 20, 2006

Building Excitement

It is now only a week until the Power of Jesus Crusade in Cleveland!!! I am getting pretty excited. All but one of the husbands of our small group is going, WooHoo! The Lord worked out a series of miny miracles yesterday to get my dear friend there. 1. She received her husband's blessing. 2. She was able to get childcare for the one day her husband could not care for them. 3. Her ticket was PAID FOR IN FULL, when I received a call from a friend who had registered for the conference and was unable to attend. She was wanting to bless someone by transfering the registration to someone that could use it. PRAISE GOD!! I have been believing by faith that she was going to be there. I knew God did not just want to bless her by the overflowing of our return, he wants to equip HER. YIPPEE!

I am excited....can you tell?

Thursday, October 19, 2006

My Cat

We have a cat. She is an indoor cat. At least we have told her this.
In fact she does love it indoors. She likes the warmth. She sleeps in the coziest placest. Often we find her cuddled next to little girl in her bed. Other times up high on top of my kitchen cabinets. She has a good life here. She is well fed. She is much loved.
So why, oh, why does she want to go outside? Over the last year, she has made a statement. I want to be out, as often as I can. And with little children in the home it is not difficult to find the door open. The kids are learning to shut the door and sometimes are very mindful of it. Yet still she goes into stealth mode and plans her escape. Once out, she travels the neighborhood. Sometimes she is out all day, sometimes over night. I think she knows she has it good, because she always returns.
Last night we arrived back to the house late. We come in and she goes leaping out. I let her know, "It's going to be a cold one, you should come back in." She meanders away, ignoring my warning. Ten minutes later there is wailing at the door. Pitiful "MEOW, MeOW, MEOW." I open the door and she comes running in. She decided to listen to me afterall.
It made me think, "How often do I do this?" What does the Lord say to me? This morning as I thought about it, I sensed He said something like this...."I have fashioned you. You are exactely where you need to be. Stay with me where you are cozy and warm. In my presence. You have it good here. Don't go looking out to the world. It is cold. It is harsh. Stick with me. Yes I know, sometimes you have your own plan. You want to do things your own way. Please don't. My way is best! Yes, if you test it out I will welcome you back. I will sweep you up in my arms. And remind you once again of my unfailing love!"
Wow. I have it good. I know I do. I have a loving Father, that longs to be with me. I am safe in His arms away from the harshness of the world. Makes me want to obey and stay near Him.
Now only if my cat would get that message too.

Wednesday, October 18, 2006

Cascade Review

The Fed-Ex man showed up on my porch yesterday. I love packages. I had ordered some computer CD's recently so I expected to find that inside the package. No, not even close. Rather than CD's there was a complete bag of Cascade 2in1 ActionPacs! Cool. I read through the info that accompanied it and tucked the 20 count bag under the kitchen sink. I did not yet have a full load of dishes. I decided I was really going to put this product to the test. After lunch, I did not rinse the plates. I put them in the dishwasher with globs of ketchup. I thought to myself, that will be a nice dried mess by the time I do wash them. For dinner I made chili. Bright red chili. First I had to brown the meat which produced a gross greasy pan; again I did not rinse. In went the chili pot, I resisted the urge to do a quick rinse. Time for the test. The dishes looked gross and I had my doubts. Should I take the chili pan out and rinse it? NO, it would not be a true test of these Cascade ActionPacs. So I take one self contained pac out of the bag and put it in the normal spot that I usually have to squirt and over squirt the detergent into. Nothing more required, I start the dishwasher and wait.
Fastforward to this morning. I went to unload the dishes and WOW! Needless to say I was amazed. All of them were perfectly clean. No residual red from the chili. No stuck on ketchup. No grease. If fact I have never been able to get my spatula as clean as it was this morning. Thank you Cascade ActionPacs! You have made a believer out of me. I will be using you from here on out. In fact I am a bit sad that I still have a relatively full bottle of the "other stuff," that I will need to use up before getting more of you.

There you have it folks. Cascade ActionPacs are amazing. Even my five year old agrees.
If you are interested in getting your own sample of this marvelous product, leave a comment including your email address and Samara (the nice lady that sent me the product) will send some to you as well. You will not be disappointed.

That Is Not How I Remembered It

Dwelling in my Daniel study these days and I came across some things that I didn't quite recall. Those of you with small children will most likely have seen the Veggie Tales reinactment of Daniel and the fiery furnace in the tale Rack, Shack and Benny. As the story goes Daniel and his friends work at the chocolate factory, they are promoted, given special ties and everything. They were important stuff. The owner builds his chocolate idol and all are asked to bow down. Recall the scene where Laura is begging them to "Just do it, bow down." What I am reading in Daniel somewhat surprises me and this is why. Laura would not have even been there. That's right, she was JUST a factory worker. Let's read from Daniel and see WHO WAS there...
Daniel 3
2 He then summoned the satraps, prefects, governors, advisers, treasurers, judges, magistrates and all the other provincial officials to come to the dedication of the image he had set up. 3 So the satraps, prefects, governors, advisers, treasurers, judges, magistrates and all the other provincial officials assembled for the dedication of the image that King Nebuchadnezzar had set up, and they stood before it.

If I understand this correctly, it was those of importance that were summoned, NOT your common folk of Babylon. That is how Beth equates it too. If fact it appears that they are listed from the most important of offices to the least. Huh! Not the common folk. Not the Lauras or the factory, or the Sarah's from the home. Those in office. Imagine with me George Bush and his cabinet, the Supreme court, the Senate, the House, the Govenor of your state, are you imagining with me here. Imagine them all gathered together in one place and asked to bow down to a large statue (or notion) from another nation. Because in the text it said men of EVERY langauge. The men assembled were not just Babylonian officials, they were men from all of the world. Men of prominence. Why does that matter? He didn't want the worship of just anyone, he wanted it from the elite. Nothing more than to stoke his own ego.

I found this to be interesting. How about you?

Originally posted as Dave and the Giant Pickle..oops, that would be the story of David and Goliath.

Tuesday, October 17, 2006

Dove Film

This video is definately worth watching. Way to go Dove!

Daniel's Praise

In my Daniel study this morning, it highlighted this verse of praise and thanks.
Daniel 2:20-23
20 and said: "Praise be to the name of God for ever and ever;
wisdom and power are his.
21 He changes times and seasons;

he sets up kings and deposes them.
He gives wisdom to the wise
and knowledge to the discerning.
22 He reveals deep and hidden things;

he knows what lies in darkness,
and light dwells with him.
23 I thank and praise you, O God of my fathers:

You have given me wisdom and power,
you have made known to me what we asked of you,
you have made known to us the dream of the king."

We have been charged to memeorize it, and I shall. It sums up what alot of what I feel right now. He reveals. I am thankful. All things are in His hands. He changes things. He sets things up. He reveals deep and hidden things. WOW! He has given me wisdom. He has made known to me. I am amazed at His goodness and power.
God is good, All the time!

Early this morning I had a dream. It was not a thus saith the Lord, kind of dream. In it I was in a group setting when an evil man came into our presence with the intent to harm. I think my first reaction was shock, a split second of fear and then a reminder that the armies of the Lord are on hand. So I began to pray. That the Lord's army would fight on our behalf. In the room, angels begin to materialize, they did what not one of us ladies could do. They fought on our behalf. As they fought I spoke the words "the blood of Jesus, the blood of Jesus..." repeatedly. Others joined in, until the whole room was speaking it. Not one of us was harmed.

I pray that this actual event does not happen. I do not wish to be tested on this. Yet it felt like a training of sorts. In this circumstance I should call forth the armies of the Lord and pray the blood of Jesus over us all.

Have you ever had a dream that prepared you for a true circumstance?

Praise be to the name of God for ever and ever!

Monday, October 16, 2006

You know you have great friends...

When they read your blog and they call and offer to help you clean your home with you! THANK YOU Kristen!

The day was productive. I found myself drawn to the computer a couple of times only to see that the screen was indeed black. The moments I am most vunerable to veg in front of the computer are first thing in the morning, after school or when whining has accelerated. I will be trying out different methods of self-control over the next few days. We shall see how that goes.

My son did something rather amazing tonight. The three of us decided to go out to dinner. DD and I wanted Famous Taco...I love Famous Taco. Really I love all Mexican food. So it was set, that is what was decided. Half way there my son says (in a pleasent manner) that he did not want tacos, he wanted to go to dinner with grandma and grandpa. He was not arguementative or whining, just stating his case. He was trying to convince us to go with grandma and grandpa too. But little girl and I had our minds on tacos and salsa and tostados get the point. As we pulled into the parking lot of Famous Taco, I could tell he was disappointed so I said "How about a deal? You come into Famous Taco with us and if you do not eat one single bite of food here, I will let you go with grandma and grandpa to dinner. Is it a deal?" He asked "What about chips and salsa?" "Not a single bite!" "!" So we walked in, as we passed by the gumball machine, he asked, "How about gum?" "Not a single bite." "OK, I know, I know." We sit down. The chips and salsa arrive at the table. Little girl and I dig in. I look over at him, testing his resolve. "You sure you don't want to eat chips and salsa." "No." He distanced himself away for a bit. The waters came and at first he didn't even want a sip from that. I assured him, drinking the water would be fine. So he did. Then he came over and sat near me. "Well they do look good. I would eat chips and salsa, but I am not going to." He didn't touch them. The meal came. He didn't waiver. He had decided he was not going to partake in this food. The meal ended and he stood firm on his decision. He paid our bill and left. A smile of accomplishment on his face. He arrived to grandma and grandpa's and they were more than willing to take him to dinner. After, I went home for some money, I joined them for dessert. A carmel brownie sunday...yum!
So I was really proud of my boy today, apparently he has some self-control. Maybe I should ask him his secret.

Sunday, October 15, 2006


The last two weeks have been a whirlwind on the corprate level. The weekend I have been responsible for, was nearly canceled. Through prayer times, dreams and counsel with others, it was evident that the Lord was doing a mighty work. For the first time ever it has been rescheduled, NOT CANCELED. Praise God! There has been burst of activity in preperation. I have been on the phone enough that the battery has died a few times on me. Yes it helps to remember to put it on the charger. I am more convinced than ever that He is good, He has a plan and I can trust Him to see it through.

As a part of the above, I am excited in my own spiritual walk. I am hearing from the Lord and I am amazed. It is one thing to hear from the Lord and a whole other when things are confirmed. Very thankful!

Friday I had an amazing time of worship at Visions. The post Oh, How I love you was an outpouring of that time. Worship is amazing! I love being able to dance and sing and pray and interceed. Ministry, I love it!

My dog turns one tomorrow. We got her a huge bone. She still is quite puppy. Big, but puppy.

My house looks like a tornado has blown through. With all the phone calls and preperation for the weekend, I have neglected my home. Anyone wanting to take my kids for a few hours, or a day, or a sleepover?? My game plan for tomorrow is to focus as much as possable on getting my home in order. In the midst of school and beyond.

Due to my obsessive computer habits at the moment, I will be turning off the comuter for the day. I will return after the kids go to bed tomorrow (Monday) night. If only I had the self-control to get on and leave it on while leaving it alone. I currently don't. It is an escape of sorts that I get sucked into spending more time than I really dare calculate.

So leave lots of comments. And I will see you all when I return.

Happy 3rd Birthday!

Dear Daughter,

You are incredibly sweet. This last year you have gone from a baby to a little girl. You would tell me you are big, not little. In fact you are so big, you don't wear diapers anymore. And you did it all on your own. You claim independence to the nth degree. You like to pick out your own clothes, get yourself dressed and brush your hair. Sometimes you will ask for help, sometimes.

I am thankful for you. You are teaching me how to be a girl. From you I am learning how to do hair and paint nails. You have more nail polish than I do. You lips are almost always shining with lip gloss. You can color coordinate, matching outfits is no problem; for you. When you wear your hair in pigtails, I could eat you up. You are so sweet and beautiful.

I love your heart. You wake up in the morning with a song of praise on your lips. You go throughout your day singing little songs. It melts my heart when you sing to God. And when you pray for daddy, it gives me a glimpse of who you are becoming. You are not afraid to dance and raise your hands to the heavens. Although you tend to be shy around unfamilar people.

In learning you are joining us at the table. You spell your name. You count to 14. Say your ABC's (you skip k). You want to do everything your brother is doing. As he does his reading lessons you say all the sounds and words along with him. If he is cutting with scissors, you do too. If he is glueing, so are you. If he does it, you pretty much want in on the action. I can tell you are learning everyday. You "write" letters; as you spell things out you make a circle for each letter. While your brother does book work you like to play with the hands on stuff; pattern blocks, bears, blocks and puzzles.

In play you love to be a mommy. You carry your babies with you throughout the house. You tell me all the time when you get big you are going to be a mommy. You also enjoy riding your tricycle. A few weeks ago I discovered you love to run. I can't wait to see how all things will come together as you grow.

Little girl, you are spunky and fun. You are independant and I am learning how to guide you, without discouraging you. Your giggle is contagious. I love you. You are the best daughter in the whole wide world. I am so glad your a part of our family.



Little girl is three!!
Yesterday we celebrated her birthday.
Among the gifts; Barbie and Tanner.

Feed Tanner (the dog), then he poops, then you get to clean it up.
Sounds like fun! My 5 year old boy thought it was pretty cool.

Saturday, October 14, 2006

Oh, How I Love You

Have you ever just danced with abandon before the throne?
I pray that if only for a moment you can experience this!

Oh, how I love you Lord
You are my God and King
I praise your name on high
Oh, how I love you

I will dance for you
I will sing your praise
I will clap my hands
Oh, how I love you

There are parts of me
Longing to sing out to you
Feet to move
An inner rhythm that cries out

I will praise you Lord
with my mouth I sing
With my feet I dance
I dance before you

There's a new song
There's a new dance
Longing to reach your throne
Oh, how I love you

So I will sing
I will dance
I will praise you
Oh my Lord and King

Yes I will sing
I will dance
I will praise you
Oh my Lord and King

This is my song to you
This is what my heart speaks
Oh how I love you!

**I was reading last night after this and came to Psalm 47, how fitting!
****And this morning I went back to the Word and this chapter really spoke to me; Psalm 63.

Friday, October 13, 2006

OH YES...It Did!

Yesterday, I awoke to SNOW! This is exceptionally early for snow in Michigan. Like two months early. My mom told me our city made The Weather Channel nationally, with 1 1/2 inch accumulation. That was at 8am. We had snow globe snow all day long. With bursts of sunshine. How bizarre! Interested to see what total accumulation for the day ended up being.
My son was in his glory!

Perfect packing!

Here he is working on a HUGE snowball. It keeps going and going. He stayed out there until it was too dark to see.

He got dressed in his snow suit first thing this morning to continue.

I guess he REALLY likes the snow!


The last few weeks, in moments of complete sweetness, my daughter gives me great big hugs and kisses my cheek. Saying "You're the BEST mommy in the WHOLE world!" I melt. Kiss her cheek and say your "the BEST daughter in the WHOLE world!" Last night she said it and I asked her why, her reply. "Because you give me food and let watch TV."

This morning we were cuddling and she asked "Do you want fast or slow?" Then proceeded to give me a good arm scratch. First slow, then fast. She is growing up, ahhh. At least she still believes I am the BEST!

Thursday, October 12, 2006

The Greatest Day On The Blogosphere

It began around 7am and ended around 1:30amEST and yes folks, I spent most of my day on the blogosphere.

Oh, what a day! The people I met, that places I went. I laughed. I cried. Sometimes I laughed so hard, I cried. We prayed. We bantered. I giggled in pure delight.

I did more comments than than I expected for Mary's comment party. I learned more than I ever could imagine to learn about Bar Keeper's Friend. Really that stuff is AMAZING! Pretty much the only thing accomplished in my home yesterday was the polishing of my kitchen sink and the removal of rust rings in the shower. So productivity may have been down. But joy was up! A broadening of my horizons.

Today, I will turn off the computer, and get things down. But I will have with me all the memories of yesterday, the greatest day on the blogosphere!

Wednesday, October 11, 2006

Oh Won't You Help?? *Updated*

On October 9th, Owlhaven wrote this:
Want your blog to be insanely popular?
Do you crave comments? Lots and lots of visitors? Then don’t miss this ebay auction: eBay: One thousand 1000 real COMMENTS for your article/ blog. (item 170034912389 end time Oct-10-06 08:36:38 PDT)
Laughing my head off over this one. (Also, foolishly tempted to bid…..)

Well, Blogless Brian suggested we do our part to make her feel insanely popular. I think it would be insanely funny. Here is the plan, go to her site, and comment (as many times as you wish or are able) on her Works For Me Wednesday post. Watch the comments rise (the goal is 1000) and make Mary feel speical and popular for a day. Oh, the reality is she is already popular and for a reason. She is bright, funny and mother of 8. Her writing is fantastic. Check out her blog in its entireity but while you are there PLEASE LEAVE A MESSAGE ON TODAYS POST!


If you have been to visit owlhaven, you know that her post today is about the NOW famous Bar Keeper's Friend. After reading about it all morning, I went out and bought some. Ahhh the power of suggestion.

Keep commenting...the day is not over!

Monday, October 09, 2006

By Faith...

Hebrews chapter 11 is often referred to as the Bible's "Hall of Faith." In it the chapter recaps lives of those who acted in great faith. If you have time read through them in it's entireity; pressed for time read the highlights.

3 By faith we understand that the universe was formed at God's command, so that what is seen was not made out of what was visible.

4 By faith Abel offered God a better sacrifice than Cain did. By faith he was commended as a righteous man, when God spoke well of his offerings. And by faith he still speaks, even though he is dead.

5 By faith Enoch was taken from this life, so that he did not experience death; he could not be found, because God had taken him away. For before he was taken, he was commended as one who pleased God. 6And without faith it is impossible to please God, because anyone who comes to him must believe that he exists and that he rewards those who earnestly seek him.

7 By faith Noah, when warned about things not yet seen, in holy fear built an ark to save his family. By his faith he condemned the world and became heir of the righteousness that comes by faith.

8 By faith Abraham, when called to go to a place he would later receive as his inheritance, obeyed and went, even though he did not know where he was going. 9 By faith he made his home in the promised land like a stranger in a foreign country; he lived in tents, as did Isaac and Jacob, who were heirs with him of the same promise. 10For he was looking forward to the city with foundations, whose architect and builder is God.
11 By faith Abraham, even though he was past age—and Sarah herself was barren—was enabled to become a father because he[a]considered him faithful who had made the promise. 12And so from this one man, and he as good as dead, came descendants as numerous as the stars in the sky and as countless as the sand on the seashore.
13 All these people were still living by faith when they died. They did not receive the things promised; they only saw them and welcomed them from a distance. And they admitted that they were aliens and strangers on earth. 14People who say such things show that they are looking for a country of their own. 15If they had been thinking of the country they had left, they would have had opportunity to return. 16Instead, they were longing for a better country—a heavenly one. Therefore God is not ashamed to be called their God, for he has prepared a city for them.

17 By faith Abraham, when God tested him, offered Isaac as a sacrifice. He who had received the promises was about to sacrifice his one and only son, 18even though God had said to him, "It is through Isaac that your offspring[b] will be reckoned."[c] 19Abraham reasoned that God could raise the dead, and figuratively speaking, he did receive Isaac back from death.

20 By faith Isaac blessed Jacob and Esau in regard to their future.

21 By faith Jacob, when he was dying, blessed each of Joseph's sons, and worshiped as he leaned on the top of his staff.

22 By faith Joseph, when his end was near, spoke about the exodus of the Israelites from Egypt and gave instructions about his bones.

23 By faith Moses' parents hid him for three months after he was born, because they saw he was no ordinary child, and they were not afraid of the king's edict.

24 By faith Moses, when he had grown up, refused to be known as the son of Pharaoh's daughter. 25He chose to be mistreated along with the people of God rather than to enjoy the pleasures of sin for a short time. 26He regarded disgrace for the sake of Christ as of greater value than the treasures of Egypt, because he was looking ahead to his reward. 27 By faith he left Egypt, not fearing the king's anger; he persevered because he saw him who is invisible. 28 By faith he kept the Passover and the sprinkling of blood, so that the destroyer of the firstborn would not touch the firstborn of Israel.

29 By faith the people passed through the Red Sea[d] as on dry land; but when the Egyptians tried to do so, they were drowned.

30 By faith the walls of Jericho fell, after the people had marched around them for seven days.

31 By faith the prostitute Rahab, because she welcomed the spies, was not killed with those who were disobedient.[e]

Many things have been done by faith. And it appears that the Lord takes notice. What will be said of you and I? If the list were to continue through the course of all time; would you be there? Would it say...By faith, Sarah.....? Oh I pray it does, let it be said of me. Let it be said of you!

Lord, increase my faith!

Saturday, October 07, 2006

My Testimony

I have tossed around the idea of sharing the whole story of my testimony for a bit. As most of my family and friends read my blog, doing so in a respectful way has detoured me. Yet I think with a little help from the Spirit it can be done.
I grew up being the youngest of four. So while I always had people around, I usually felt lonely. There were no kids my age in my neighborhood. My closest friend was 5 years younger than me. So I often played alone. When I was in third grade my mom was electrecuted with more bolts of electricity than a lightning bolt. She was clinically dead for several minutes. By the grace of God, she lived. Up until this point my family attended church pretty regularly. I went to Sunday school. I knew "Jesus loves me." Then the accident happened. My mom was in and out of the hospital. My dad was left, caring for his wife and 4 kids ranging in age from 8 to 15. When our family needed them the most, the church was not there. I think there was misunderstandings with my moms near death experience. None the less, we left the church.
My parents are incredible people. They always taught us to "think things through" and "to use common sense." My mom stayed home with us in the early years. She poured into us, in ways I will forever be grateful. We did some great things, hiked, camped, ate meals together. When I started school, mom began working. They made it work. After the accident, she had many health issues. I worried a lot about her. Was my mom going to live? Was she going to see me graduate? Grow up? My dad is the smartest person I know! He amazes me and I have always looked up to him.
As the years went by I watched my older siblings go through their own sort of rebellion. I wanted to be the good girl. I wanted to make my parents proud. I know my parents are proud of each of us. Yet we caused many a gray hairs.
In middle school, I remember wanting to be cool. So I skipped school and bought a pack of cigerattes. My parents found out and confronted it. So glad they did. Since I wanted to please them, I never did that again.
Also in middle school, my parents bought a motor cycle. It was a great time for them to be together and so many week nights and most weekends they were out riding. One of my siblings was less than kind, so I felt abandoned during this time in my life. Enter guys. Looking for attention. I was mean then too. I remember hitting guys saying "If I am man enough to hit you I am man enough to get hit back." What a mentality.
In high school I had a thing for older guys. So my freshman year, I dated a senior. My sophmore year I dated a senior. Nothing good was in these relationships. No boundries. Much regret. While I was dating the guy in 10th grade; he was accompliss to murder. Yes you read that right even if I spelled it wrong. It was a hard reality. I was left looking at my life; where am I at? What am I doing? Is this what I want with my life? I ended the relationship.
Around that time God was calling me back to the church. Everytime I drove past my childhood church I felt pulled there. Finally one Sunday I convinced my best friend to come with me, afterall I did not want to go alone. My mom dropped us off and picked us up at the end. I will never forget, it was palm sunday, and we got in the van and asked my mom what in the world these green leafy things were about? I had NO CLUE. I began attending regularly. I joined the choir. I participated with the youth group. I didn't know it then, but people were praying for me. Seeds were being planted.
In relationships I decided not to date. Instead, I played how far is too far with "friends". That was Junior year.
My senior year, I decided to hang out with some friends. As the night progressed everyone left but me. When the guy I was with started having sex with me, I told him no. But when he didn't listen, I resolved myself to it and let it go on. Three weeks later, I found out I was pregnant. 17 and pregnant. I told my youth leaders. I told my parents. I told the guy and my closest friends. Yet I felt scared and alone. My dad stopped talking to me. He didn't know what to say, so he said nothing at all. Others had plenty to say. What will you do with your life? How will you raise a baby? You must put that baby up for adoption! Abort! Woah...wait I could never do that. I knew personally the effects of adoption. I would not end a life. I didn't know how I would do it...I just would. Even marry the father if necessary. Morning sickness came. Not just "morning" sickness. morning, afternoon, evening, dry heaves. SICK!!! It took every bit of my strength and even more of my resolve. I ended up going through with an abortion. I was in a pit. A pit of dispair.
People don't really understand what a post abortive woman goes through. There is guilt, self condemnation, accusations and cruel words of others. I was labeled murderer (which in truth I was.) And stalked by a man. Terrible, terrible. There is something about being in the pit, there is nowhere to go but up. I continued going to church. Slowly things begin to peice together. In January of my Senior year I went on a retreat. It was an unforgetable experience. It was the first time I consciencely was around a sold out christian. The speaker for the weekend had such a presence of the Spirit, he spent time in prayer and read the Word. He was fellowshipping with God and everything about him screamed it. It gave me a hunger. I wanted to know God like that. On that weekend I took my first steps in becoming a Christ follower. I clearly remember the song "I Believe in Jesus." "I believe in Jesus, I believe he is the Son of God, I believe He died and rose again, I believe He paid for us all, And I believe that He's here now, standing in our midst, With the power to heal and the grace to forgive." It became my anthem. I knew that I was a sinner in need of a saver, so I began to believe. Shortly after accepting Christ I went on a 3 day weekend retreat that changed my life. On day one of that weekend I found myself in a sanctuary listening to a young woman share her story as a prodigal. I knew this was me. I had taken my life and scaunddered it.... and I longed for things to be made right. The good news is that my God is a loving father and he rejoiced in my homecoming. That night I had an oppurtunity to take all my sin, my hangups and hurts and nail them, physically nail them to the cross. We were given a piece of paper and a pencil. As I began to write I thought my list would never end. I took that sheet of paper, I folded it. Took a hammer in my hand and nailed those sins into the cross. In doing so, I nailed every written code against me every condemning word. And I was free. Free from guilt and shame. Free from my past. Forgiven. There was still much to be healed but I was on the right path and with THE one who could heal me. I was a new creation. Wow!
Shortly after this I became one of the original 12 in a ministry here called Visions, a Christian nite club. It was discipleship 101. I learned how to trust, pray, love and minister; God was using me, yes me, to accomplish good for His kingdom. Such an amazing time in my life.
I have been blessed beyond measure in these past 11 years. I have grown, matured, healed. At 20 I married my best friend, a Godly man, that I met at Visions. God has always provided. When we were seven months pregnant with our first, we were both unexpected unemployed. Never did we go without. God even payed for the birth of our son, $1500 paid in full out of obedience to Christ. The day my son was born I became a stay at home mom. Blessed I tell ya. When we were pregnant with what would be our second, I experienced some spotting. I was camping two hours away from home so the midwife recommend I get it checked out. Thinking it was nothing I went alone to the hospital. I remember being in the ultrasound room, marveling at life. This tiny form on the screen. The technician was experiencing some difficulty so he called in the doctor. Then the words fell. "I am sorry but there is no heartbeat." The tears fell too. I was taken back to my room and given a phone to call friends and family. My husband was two hours away back home. My friends were at the campground with my little one. I was alone yet at the same time I was not alone at all. God was with me. I felt his presence surround me. I felt him hold me. And I remember him asking "Can you praise me in your pain?" So with tears streaming down my cheeks. I sang out loud "Praise God from Whom all blessings flow, praise him above all creatures here below, praise him above the heavenly host, praise Father, Son and Holy Ghost. Amen" I was discharged from the hospital and went back to the campground. My husband had just arrived. Let's just say he didn't exactly do the speed limit to get up there. He arrived none too soon. As we hugged my water broke and the miscarriage began. It was evident I needed to be back in the hospital, so we went. I was immediately given a room. I remember asking the doctor if I was at risk of hemmoraging and he said. "Honey, you are hemmoraging!" Through the course of 6 paps in one day, they got the baby out without surgery. While I was sad over our loss, I was ever thankful for my son and the blessing we had in him!
5 months later, we were pregnant again. This time, blessed with our little girl. Spunky and fun she is. I can not imagine life without her.
God has been so good to me. He has changed me from the inside out. I am not the same person I was 11 years ago. I am ever in love with my Lord! Praise be to Him for he is good, his love endures forever!!!
That is my journey, that is my story! Read more testimonies over at Laurens, Bloggy Tour of testimonies.

P.S My mom is still very much alive and well. She saw me get married and have my babies! I am ever thankful for the part both of my parents have played in my life. I love you both.

Friday, October 06, 2006


A peace that surpasses all understanding!
There are two circumstances this week that would normally have me in a tizzy. Yet I find myself with amazing peace. That God truly has a plan, and it is good kind of peace.
Sidenote: All is worked out with our group. All is good. Thanks for prayers.

Wednesday, October 04, 2006

Oh The Places I've Been

Things in red are thing I HAVE DONE.

01. Bought everyone in the bar a drink
02. Swam with wild dolphins
03. Climbed a mountain
04. Taken a Ferrari for a test drive
05. Been inside the Great Pyramid
06. Held a tarantula
07. Taken a candlelit bath with someone
08. Said “I love you’ and meant it
09. Hugged a tree
10. Bungee jumped
11. Visited Paris
12. Watched a lightning storm at sea
13. Stayed up all night long and saw the sun rise
14. Seen the Northern Lights
15. Gone to a huge sports game (and survived the crush afterwards)
16. Walked the stairs to the top of the leaning Tower of Pisa
17. Grown and eaten your own vegetables
18. Touched an iceberg
19. Slept under the stars
20. Changed a baby’s diaper

21. Taken a trip in a hot air balloon (Been up in a tethered balloon)
22. Watched a meteor shower
23. Gotten drunk on champagne
24. Given more than you can afford to charity
25. Looked up at the night sky through a telescope
26. Had an uncontrollable giggling fit
at the worst possible moment
27. Had a food fight
28. Bet on a winning horse

29. Asked out a stranger
30. Had a snowball fight
31. Screamed as loudly as you possibly can
32. Held a lamb
33. Seen a total eclipse
34. Ridden a roller coaster
35. Hit a home run
36. Danced like a fool and not cared who was looking
37. Adopted an accent for an entire day
38. Actually felt happy about your life, even for just a moment

39. Had two hard drives for your computer
40. Visited all 50 states
41. Taken care of someone who was drunk
42. Had amazing friends
43. Danced with a stranger in a foreign country
44. Watched wild whales
45. Stolen a sign (political to stake in someones yard)
46. Backpacked in Europe
47. Taken a road-trip
48. Gone rock climbing
49. Midnight walk
on the beach on a boardwalk
50. Gone sky diving
51. Visited Ireland
52. Been heartbroken longer than you were actually in love
53. In a restaurant, sat at a stranger’s table and had a meal with them
54. Visited Japan
55. Milked a cow
56. Alphabetized your CDs
57. Pretended to be a superhero
58. Sung karaoke
59. Lounged around in bed all day
60. Posed nude in front of strangers
61. Gone scuba diving
62. Kissed in the rain
63. Played in the mud
64. Played in the rain
65. Gone to a drive-in theater
66. Visited the Great Wall of China
67. Started a business
68. Fallen in love and not had your heart broken
69. Toured ancient sites
70. Taken a martial arts class
71. Played D&D for more than 6 hours straight
72. Gotten married
73. Been in a movie
74. Crashed a party
75. Gotten divorced
76. Gone without food for 5 days
77. Made cookies from scratch
78. Won first prize in a costume contest

79. Ridden a gondola in Venice
80. Gotten a tattoo
81. Rafted the Snake River (during hurricane flood waters)
82. Been on television news programs
as an “expert”
83. Got flowers for no reason
84. Performed on stage
85. Been to Las Vegas
86. Recorded music (Cedar Point counts right?)
87. Eaten shark
88. Had a one-night stand
89. Gone to Thailand
90. Bought a house
91. Been in a combat zone (Of Spiritual Warfare)
92. Buried one/both of your parents
93. Been on a cruise ship
94. Spoken more than one language fluently
95. Performed in Rocky Horror
96. Raised children
97. Followed your favorite band/singer on tour
99. Taken an exotic bicycle tour in a foreign country
100. Picked up and moved to another city to just start over
101. Walked the Golden Gate Mackinaw Bridge (5 mile suspension bridge in Michigan)
102. Sang loudly in the car, and didn’t stop when you knew someone was looking
103. Had plastic surgery
104. Survived an accident that you shouldn’t have survived
105. Wrote articles for a large publication
106. Lost over 100 pounds
107. Held someone while they were having a flashback
108. Piloted an airplane
109. Petted a stingray
110. Broken someone’s heart
111. Helped an animal give birth
112. Won money on a T.V. game show
113. Broken a bone
114. Gone on an African photo safari
115. Had a body part of yours below the neck pierced
116. Fired a rifle, shotgun, or pistol
117. Eaten mushrooms that were gathered in the wild
118. Ridden a horse
119. Had major surgery
120. Had a snake as a pet
121. Hiked to the bottom of the Grand Canyon
122. Slept for more than 30 hours over the course of 48 hours
123. Visited more foreign countries than U.S. states
124. Visited all 7 continents
125. Taken a canoe trip that lasted more than 2 days
126. Eaten kangaroo meat
127. Eaten sushi
128. Had your picture in the newspaper
129. Changed someone’s mind about something you care deeply about
130. Gone back to school
131. Parasailed
132. Petted a cockroach (touched one unintentionally)
133. Eaten fried green tomatoes
134. Read The Iliad - and the Odyssey
135. Selected one “important” author who you missed in school, and read
136. Killed and prepared an animal for eating
137. Skipped all your school reunions
138. Communicated with someone without sharing a common spoken language
139. Been elected to public office
140. Written your own computer language
141. Thought to yourself that you’re living your dream
142. Had to put someone you love into hospice care
143. Built your own PC from parts
144. Sold your own artwork to someone who didn’t know you
145. Had a booth at a street fair (It was my Aunts booth)
146. Dyed your hair Highlights only
147. Been a DJ
148. Shaved your head
149. Caused a car accident
150. Saved someone’s life ???

How about you?

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We Have a Choice

We have a choice! In our day we can choose to be grumpy, happy, sad, mad, full of rage, silly, controling, permissive, full of joy... We have a choice!
We have a choice to follow after God, or follow after man. We have a choice! I can allow pressures to overtake me or I can give them over to God. I can sit in self pity or can stand up and say, "today is the day the Lord has made and I will rejoice and be glad in it!" I can live in spiritual warfare, oppressed, or I can take my position of authority. I can see others around me as critical but that doesn't mean that they are condemning. I can allow Satan to speak lies or I can soak in the truth.
I am choosing joy. I am choosing truth. I am choosing to love. I am choosing to follow after God, yeilding to the Holy Spirit. I choose to forgive. I choose to move forward. I choose to be a child of the most high God. I choose to listen to His voice over the voice of the world. I purpose, I resolve, I choose!
How about you?

Daniel 1:8 says "But Daniel resolved not to defile himself ..."
Sarah resolved not to defile herself...!

Tuesday, October 03, 2006


Last night I ended my post and intended to head for the prayer closet. It took forever to get me there. Kids to be put to bed. Fever in my little girl. Phone calls, both bringing much unexpected encouragement. A few times tears as they spoke with them not even realizing God was working. Some calls made, left unreturned. A few emails. It was all ground work for my time with God. Uncertain where to start, I decided to go to the Word. In the 90 Days through the bible I am in Psalms. Last night was Psalm 1-24. As I read, often time out loud, I had streams of tears. I got it. After I finished the reading, I had a time of prayer. Some specific questions. Then I went to bed. As I lay there I felt answers come. Little girls fever is not for nothing. It has a purpose. We shall see how it all plays out.
This morning I entered in again to the Psalms. Here are some that spoke to me.
Psalm 25:20-21
20 Guard my life and rescue me;
let me not be put to shame,
for I take refuge in you.
21 May integrity and uprightness protect me,
because my hope is in you.

Psalm 26:2-3
2 Test me, O LORD, and try me,
examine my heart and my mind;
3 for your love is ever before me,
and I walk continually in your truth.

Psalm 26:8
8 I love the house where you live, O LORD,
the place where your glory dwells.

Psalm 27:4
4 One thing I ask of the LORD,
this is what I seek:
that I may dwell in the house of the LORD
all the days of my life,
to gaze upon the beauty of the LORD
and to seek him in his temple.

Psalm 27:8
8 My heart says of you, "Seek his face!"
Your face, LORD, I will seek.

Psalm 27:11-14
11 Teach me your way, O LORD;
lead me in a straight path
because of my oppressors.
12 Do not turn me over to the desire of my foes,
for false witnesses rise up against me,
breathing out violence.
13 I am still confident of this:
I will see the goodness of the LORD
in the land of the living.
14 Wait for the LORD;
be strong and take heart
and wait for the LORD.

Psalm 28:6-8
6 Praise be to the LORD,
for he has heard my cry for mercy.
7 The LORD is my strength and my shield;
my heart trusts in him, and I am helped.
My heart leaps for joy
and I will give thanks to him in song.
8 The LORD is the strength of his people,
a fortress of salvation for his anointed one.

Monday, October 02, 2006

Critical Eye

Lately I have been blessed to be a part of some great things that God is doing. In some I have been prayer support, others a listening ear. Still others leadership. Right now I am called to lead in two completely different ways and groups. In one I can feel the prayer support. The team working together. In this I would say everything is going great and I feel very blessed to be a part of it! Then there is another group, in which I feel like I am under a critical eye. I feel like every decision I make, some one is watching and they have their opinions about it. Every activity, every praise and worship song, all discussions. Everything I say and do is being watched and critiqued. Like a test, although I am not sure I signed up for the course. I know I signed up for following after Christ, this I know. Is He testing me? Perhaps. In all honesty I feel like I have been thrust into a lions den, except they are not lions they are friends. People I love. Yet in my spirit, something is not right. What is it? I can not tell. Is it time to end the group? Or is Satan got a hand in it? Does it need to switch leadership? (Please Jesus!!) Do others need to step up and do their part? Do I walk away? Do I do anything? Do I do nothing? Do I pray without ceasing? Do I go on an extended fast? Do I wait until the end of the month? I think I am going to take it to the prayer closet. Me and God have a bit to sort out.

All prayers welcome!